What do I do now?
It’s 8:00 am Saturday morning. I don’t have anything in the queue. I do have posters picked out just not ready to be posted (unlike the canned ones from the previous 2 weeks). I should have stuff back up and running on a normal schedule sometime next week. For those of you who discovered the blog due to Virginia’s fight, you are welcome to stay. I will get our Iron Man review done soon.
I’m not sleeping well at night. There’s a great big empty space in the bed. I wake up whenever I nudge into Virginia’s half of the bed and she’s not there. The song “Sleeping Single in Double Bed” although half-remembered and certainly not about my circumstance springs unbidden from mind.
The dog is confused, he keeps looking for Virginia. In fact I know how the dog feels.
I’m picking up Virginia’s ashes today. The funeral is tomorrow.
If I didn’t have my kids around, I’d go stark raving loony.
Oh God, how am I going to survive without her?